We know that God has put us all here to share life together as a community of His people,
so that we can walk together through all stages of life and not alone.
In order to establish these relationships in life, one must be willing to put everything out on the table (good and bad). It is this vulnerability that is the essence of doing life in community. We all struggle with this because it goes against what society tells us to do... There is this unwritten expectation that we all need to throw on smiles and straight faces, never airing any dirty laundry, in fear that this will reveal weakness in our souls. The hard part about this idea is that if we do not get past this facade, others may never know our struggles, and the healing process may never take place.
Our "dirty laundry:" INFERTILITY
After 2 years of trying, numerous tests and procedures, and 4 unsucessful insemenation attempts, our reproductive doctor has suggested that the only way we may be able to conceive is through In Vitro Fertilization, a very costly and somewhat intense procedure. Uncertain of what God has in store for us, we want to use this period of infertility as a way to grow in our marriage, grow in our relationship with the Lord, and to share with others the glory that God intends to reveal through all of this. We know that He is in control, that His timing is perfect, and that He has given us an incredible desire to have children for a reason.
In the next few months, we plan on praying, waiting, and saving so that we can either conceive or adopt a child. It is our hope that we can share our pain and excitement within our community and support others who struggle with life by reminding each other of the love of Jesus, and that with Him all hope is never lost.
Made my way to your blog via Erin Holland. Just wanted to share with you that my husband and I were 5 years, and I don't remember how many IUI's, before we were given the same disappointing news.
ReplyDeleteI would be happy to share our story with you if you like. (Absolutely NO pressure... I just know from experience it helps to know people in the same place.)
Either way, please know you will be in my prayers.
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Love you friend! It has been encouraging to watch how God has been growing you in dependence, trust, and strength through this trial! I am excited to see how God will show up in the continuation of this journey. Thank you for your vulnerability. BIG hugs!!
ReplyDeleteLove you too, friend. Thank you.
DeleteHi... I also found you via Erin. Do you live in Reno? We went through IVF and ended up with twins and are now looking into adoption to continue growing our family. If you ever have any questions I am happy to help. It is a very intense process both physically and spiritually. Praying for you...
ReplyDeleteThank you for your prayers, Victoria. Yes, we live in Reno...I would love to hear your story and talk about the whole IVF thing...my email is ereese7@gmail.com....feel free to email me if you wanna try to get together sometime. :)
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